It’s always been like this. Not exactly like this but there has always been an aspect of this. On one hand I hadn’t anticipated that it would continue beyond the end date. I kind of thought once it was over it would be relief and nothing else. Turns out it is not that way. Old…

I began blogging long before we coined that term. Before livejournal was mainstream,
I had an online outlet for my thoughts in addition to many analog journals. Writing and creating are imperative for my well-being.
Enjoy the Ride.

“Hatred is never progress.
Hatred will never deliver us from what we have become.”
-Lindsay
They’re Not Like Us
Our family was little. Our family was comprised of just us. I feel the sting of tears and I can hear her voice state clearly, “don’t be sad, ninzie”. Boy, momma. I sure am trying. You aren’t making it easy on me though. This one is a doozy. I feel so weird with no one…
Fatherless Behaviour
I recently started writing in a journal I was given that offers questions and prompts of reflection. A page asked who I would be without my trauma and pain narrative and caused me to pause for a few minutes. Who WOULD I be without my fatherless behaviour? Sometimes people with abandonment wounds will flutter from…