Author: Lindsay Dianne
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The Progressive Nature of Owning My Part
Resentment is one of the most toxic things for the human mind and I’m notorious for holding on. For years I have struggled to find a path to accepting and forgiving the things that don’t go my way. It’s been an ongoing process of discomfort and failure. I had to let go of the idea…
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The Future I Fought For
None of it happened overnight. None of it came easily. It took months to pull it together after years of trying to hold it together. Money was impossible to save. My health was poor and my future uncertain. My body was stuck in stress and survival. I rarely got the opportunity to sleep more than…
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The Yard Stick
It was the smugness more than anything. I wasn’t shocked. In all honesty, it’s what I spent eight months trying to arrive at. Sometimes people need to believe things were their idea in order to go through with them. Sometimes people do a better job when they think they have the upper hand. I don’t…
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A World Apart
Another month has come and gone leading us right into a gloomy summer startup. July starting out hovering around 18° with wind and humidity so you spend all day putting on and taking off a hoodie. July is a marker for me. I signed a lease. I gathered resources. I got myself ready and took…
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Maybe Don’t Lie Like That
I don’t always publish things when I write them. Sometimes i am particularly motivated on one day and I fire off a number of things I schedule or draft and poke around in later. The last few posts have mostly been those. I worked on them in pieces as I needed to express my experience.…
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Let Them Lie
I have this affliction where words and scenes replay in my mind. This has always been the way it works and I don’t get to pick what stays. Flashback to October when the switch got flipped. On a dime we stopped begging for reconciliation and like magic I “couldn’t ever have a successful relationship being…
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Don’t Do That
People told me I would love being in my thirties. I did not. “you’ll come into your own.” “you’ll lean into who you are.” “you’ll stop caring what people think.” Incorrect, friends. It was a very unpleasant shit show. I wanted to disappear more times than I can count. Some of my best friendships became…
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Yes. Why?
They say it’s important to remain flexible. I often drive my friends and family crazy because I roll so loose with plans. I have always been somewhat like this but as I age I have learned to pivot. Things happen all the time that fly in the face of well-meaning plans. We must go with…
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So Low For How High
I would never have anticipated landing here. I probably should have. A lot of other people predicted at least part of this outcome. I was asked plenty of times what I thought would transpire and I routinely predicted the best case scenario. I prefer my version to the one we ended up with, for what…
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Sometimes You Gotta Upgrade…
I wanted a new shower curtain but I knew black would make the light too low to enjoy the daily washing experience so I got some lights and a great little speaker on sale. I replaced all my old kitchen towels and cloths and removed another three bags of things we no longer need to…