Author: Lindsay Dianne

  • Sometimes You Gotta Upgrade…

    Sometimes You Gotta Upgrade…

    I wanted a new shower curtain but I knew black would make the light too low to enjoy the daily washing experience so I got some lights and a great little speaker on sale. I replaced all my old kitchen towels and cloths and removed another three bags of things we no longer need to…

  • Get Back to Where You Once Belonged

    Get Back to Where You Once Belonged

    If I’m not careful and deliberate about my thinking it gets away from me. This morning I was out on the road and without any awareness I began to run the old software. I started running through the ways I fall short and why I am never enough for anyone. I relive the life i…

  • An ever evolving job title

    An ever evolving job title

    I’ve written before about being asked what I do for work. I’ve written about how it didn’t necessarily feel accurate to say I don’t work when it’s actually more like I never stop working. It’s been a long time since I held employment in a traditional sense of the word. I had plans and aspirations…

  • “when they show you, believe them.”… But which time?

    “when they show you, believe them.”… But which time?

    I’m confused. I can never really tell where the end of grace and the beginning of doormat exist. See, people are often heard saying the phrase, “when they show you who they are, believe them”, right? Or, “if they wanted to, they would.” Okay, but at the same time no one is perfect, as we…

  • Of Dreams (Not Plans)

    Of Dreams (Not Plans)

    The timing isn’t lost on me. “so, this thing happened and it’s completely changed your life. what’s your dream?” I’m a little bit taken aback and I scramble to answer. “well I don’t plan things very well, you know? I’m lost most of the time and I’m not sure how to get where I want…

  • Missing Motherhood and My Mother

    Missing Motherhood and My Mother

    Somewhere along the road I transitioned from relating to Bart and Lisa to relating to Marge and Homer. These days I’m barreling towards becoming Abe. It is the natural progression for those privileged enough to get this much time. It is far from a negative aspect of living, it is the best case scenario. I…

  • Who Knew What “Okay” Would Do.

    Who Knew What “Okay” Would Do.

    I’ve written plenty about what it’s like for me to recall parts of my life as an immersive experience. When I look at a photo or hold an item I will often be transported back to a moment in surround. The smells and sounds and the way it all felt will flood in. I no…

  • The Foundation

    The Foundation

    In a recent conversation with a very long standing friend she described my former life in terms I’d never considered before. She said I had presented my life as though I was pitching a work in progress. As though this was a project we were working on with measurable future family goals. Ever the work…

  • “what do you do?” … I shine.

    “what do you do?” … I shine.

    I meet someone new and inevitably they’ll ask me, “what do you do?” The question generally pertains to a career. The way a person makes their money will dictate how a fair amount of their time is spent. A lot of people have put time and money towards becoming an expert in their field. A…

  • Seasons Change and So Did I, You Need Not Wonder Why

    Seasons Change and So Did I, You Need Not Wonder Why

    The concept isn’t a foreign one: push someone far enough and even the meekest can snap. In fact, I think there’s a TV show called “snapped” that talks about the phenomenon. You’ve heard people say that the quiet ones are the ones to watch out for? That’s probably because by the time they’re ready to…