Another month has come and gone leading us right into a gloomy summer startup. July starting out hovering around 18° with wind and humidity so you spend all day putting on and taking off a hoodie. July is a marker for me. I signed a lease. I gathered resources. I got myself ready and took…

I don’t always publish things when I write them. Sometimes i am particularly motivated on one day and I fire off a number of things I schedule or draft and poke around in later. The last few posts have mostly been those. I worked on them in pieces as I needed to express my experience.…

I have this affliction where words and scenes replay in my mind. This has always been the way it works and I don’t get to pick what stays. Flashback to October when the switch got flipped. On a dime we stopped begging for reconciliation and like magic I “couldn’t ever have a successful relationship being…

People told me I would love being in my thirties. I did not. “you’ll come into your own.” “you’ll lean into who you are.” “you’ll stop caring what people think.” Incorrect, friends. It was a very unpleasant shit show. I wanted to disappear more times than I can count. Some of my best friendships became…

They say it’s important to remain flexible. I often drive my friends and family crazy because I roll so loose with plans. I have always been somewhat like this but as I age I have learned to pivot. Things happen all the time that fly in the face of well-meaning plans. We must go with…

I would never have anticipated landing here. I probably should have. A lot of other people predicted at least part of this outcome. I was asked plenty of times what I thought would transpire and I routinely predicted the best case scenario. I prefer my version to the one we ended up with, for what…